A Reverse Journey

The only reason I'm posting today is so I have one post for my September archives. That is SO lame!

For the past month, I haven't been engaged at all with my weight loss process. I haven't binged out like I used to, but I just haven't...cared.

How can I not care!? Sometimes when I'm stuck, I come to my blog for inspiration. But I feel SO completely UNinspired.

I feel discouraged. I don't know if I'll ever eat another salad again. I feel that bad. I don't have any vision for even wanting to re-engage.

I'm not sure what to do. I can't go back, though if I don't move forward, moving back is inevitable. Maybe that's happening even now.

So what can I do to move myself forward?

I think I got a little twisted up with THM. I was feeling like if I couldn't do it 90%+ then why bother. That's kinda silly, though. I've had this idea that I get "one" shot at weight loss and I haven't wanted to engage because I don't know if it is going to be "it". This is wrong thinking. I have this weird idea. I don't want to keep my metabolism bouncing up and down. The way I think it should work is to be fat and then start a process of weight loss...not just hang around here and there losing the same five pounds. I need to turn away from this wrong thinking.

What is the right thinking?

The right thinking is obeying the Lord. Ah, how did I get away from THAT!? Duh.

(Praying)

OK, that was good!

I need to go back to the number one thing. I've done this before, and that's OK. With my very next step, I can be back on the path of righteousness again. And that path has to do with obedience to what the Lord has revealed to me.

Morning walk...Lord, what do I do? It is cold and dark and wet. I hate driving five minutes to my walk. I hate my walk. It is pretty boring. I used to challenge myself with more and more. I don't feel like I have time to extend my walks. My walk tastes like stale goldfish crackers. Blah. What can I do? I need the benefits of walking (even the short distance I've been doing). What now?

I ordered T-Tapp a couple weeks ago. I could do that instead of walking (since You said dancing was OK). I could take the walking back up in January. I seem to have trouble with the walks in October and December especially. I watched the first video last week. Need to know what I'm getting into, ha hahhaha!

OK. So tomorrow morning, up for T-Tapp. That would be obedience. Let's reverse this reverse journey!