Some Things I Really Want to Do

There are some things I really want to do, but my current frame won't support such activities. It's like this photo of the gray mist blocking out the sun...I want freedom from fat so I can live life more fully.

-I want to do more difficult hikes...at this time, any hike with "ridge" in it is virtually impossible and I don't even consider putting it on the hike bucket list, but I get a natural high from being on top of a ridge or mountain and I'd like to do more of that
-When we were at the Ape Caves in 2013, there were two choices, the easy and the hard. I want to go back and do the hard-because I can.
-The Gray's Harbor lighthouse has 137 steps...I want to walk up and down with confidence and vigor when we finally visit!
-I've always wanted to try kayaking...I think I'd get STUCK in the opening, not to mention the blood circulation would probably be cut off "sitting" too long.
-I had various opportunities to ride horses when I was young, I would LOVE to ride a horse again (without causing it injury).

Mostly at the moment, my ideas of freedom revolve around being outdoors and being able to do more strenuous activities on the weekends. Recently, I've actually had the thought that I'd enjoy travelling with my family to Europe, something I would only want to do if I was thinner.

Of course, there's the everyday realities of being able to buy cute clothes (not just ones that have elastic waistbands), having more energy, LOOKING BETTER and being healthier. But what motivates me right now more than any of the things listed above, is leaving the misery of a guilty conscience and overcoming in this area! The Lord has brought me here to have me overcome and have victory and freedom-I want to cooperate!